I wonder what she’s thinking

I wonder what she’s thinking as we lay here our bed

Her thoughts are always swirling round and round inside her head

We raised our daughter Rhian taught her ltill she flew the nest

Nursed our parents when they were frail and old, we did our very best

Our Grandchildren then came along we more than played our part

Read books and played games whilst they pulled strings in our heart

But now their both in school and whilst it was great fun

It’s our time to relax and celebrate a job well done,

But Parkinson’s arrived and took control out of our hands

And stuck a big old spoke in our retirement plans.

Why’s is life so unfair Ann often says to me

Why us,why now she asks and I tend to agree

We talk it all through now it’s just me and you

We can do this together we’re strong

But I know that she fears it may all end in tears

There is so much that could go wrong

I hold her and say “lets live for today”

The future, well ..that’s for the birds

I squeeze her hand tight, come on where’s the fight

Your thoughtas, well today they’re just words

I give her a cuddle her heads all a muddle

But my thoughts are all very clear

With her as my rock there will be no future shock

I know we have nothing to fear.

Whatever our fate we’ll be sure to create

A bond between us strong as steel

We’ll face it together any storms we will weather

No parky cant spoil how we feel

Ann here in my heart, nothing drives us apart

As I’m sure we will both discover

Love you more every day so just wanted to say

Your my rock, my best friend and my lover

Poem written just after my diagnosis dedicated to my wife Ann who in her own words “ nearly threw up on the consultants desk”when he mentioned Parkinson’s

By nature she’s a worrier and just can’t switch off but has been very supportive to me as the years passed and symptoms has worsened

One morning after waking up I watched her sleeping on the pillow besides me and the poem was born